Star People

The assignment: Set your timer for 8 minutes. You have just realized that you’re a star being. Write. Stop when the time’s up. Submit.



Lindsey Campbell

The day I realized I might not have bones, I sat and scratched and rubbed and picked at the skin on my hands until they were raw and needed to be bandaged. Still, I found no bones. For that matter, there was no blood.

To find the blood I had to cut deeper. There’s a difference between picking and scratching—and cutting. Cutting can cut to the bone. It will find blood below the surface.

The cat was telepathically communicating with me about the football on the TV. I don’t like football, I was concerned about finding my bones.

I knew we weren’t all the same.

I don’t have bones. I have to cut deep to find blood. I’m telepathic.

When I close my eyes I can feel all my molecules. My molecules are stardust.

All molecules are simply stardust, but most people can’t feel that.

Most people don’t know, or they don’t want to know. I know.

Stardust is the matter of the universe. It’s in everything. It is everything.

I might not have bones, but at least I know that I’m stardust.

I know it, I live it. I am.

Lucien is confused, “Yes, you have bones. Yes, you have blood. You’re alive.”

I’m only as alive as millions of years of stardust made from dinosaurs and sea creatures.

Returning to the universe and becoming something again, re-comprised, reconstituted, recycled stardust.

How do I come together like this, and fall apart at the same time?

Is there a moment between this and stardust becomes me, even fleetingly?

The Star Tattoos

Sarah Maria Medina

I was seventeen. Joey and I had just gotten star tattoos. I had dropped out of the ninth grade and never went back, but I still loved to read. I had read something about all the stars being made of the same atoms as me. Joey and I tripped on that. He was my love then. Even though it was an impossible love. He was in love with me too, as much as he could be. He was such a prince of a drag queen. He had been raised by his Mexican grandmother. He believed in spells she taught him, things like raw eggs below the bed to break a fever. Yes, Joey and I were made of star dust.

He came home one night, saying “Stars, stars, I see them everywhere now.” After our tattoos, they had begun appearing randomly. Messages from the universe that we were truly stardust. But the rough hands that touched our skin were different. The men who would seek him out in the bars, and the men who paid the five dollar cover fee to get into the Italian mafia run cheap dirty clubs out North were not made of stardust. They were something else entirely. They wanted to touch our stardust. To see our shine and glimmer, this much I knew. But Joey and me, we were stardust. And Leif and Gemma. They were stardust too.

Leif was another drag queen and Gemma was more than just a fag hag. We were not fag hags. No, we didn’t believe in that. She was beautiful and glamorous and a Libra like me. She and Leif would throw magical energetic balls across the dance floor. They believed in that shit. And at sixteen, I did too. I could see those magical balls of light sliding through the air between the two of them. Back when I went to the Weathered Wall with the fake ID that someone had given me.

Then Gemma was murdered. We grieved. It had been a knife. Whoever had held that knife was not made of stardust. They were not from our world of magic that we had created in response to all of the broken glass and dust and pain that surrounded our lives.

Afterwards, she came to me in a dream. She came to others too. At her memorial, one man said that she had told him she was free. And he had heard her laughter, that tinkling bell.
Gemma had been a few years older than me. She was a clothing designer. Her and Leif. Gemma would dress me up in her fantastic creations and put my full round body on her run way. One day I asked her when she had known she would quit the clubs, and she told me when the time was right. That meant I would too. One day. And she was right.

We were stardust.


The First Clue

Rhea St. Julien

The first clue was the stardust. It started seeping out of everywhere—my ears, my eyes, my armpits, my neck. In retrospect, I think it was the hormones of puberty that started this process, but it was, like most of the changes of adolescence, an unwelcome and surprising development. I scrubbed my whole body clean every time I saw a little of it, that shimmery substance that smelled vaguely of space.

Until one day, when I woke up and it was all around me in the bed, enveloping me like a cape. The viscosity of it was the best thing I had ever felt – like velvet, like coming home. I sunk into it like a warm bath. I let it swirl around me, seeping in and out of skin from every orifice. I had never felt so sated, so pure, so free.

And so utterly in-human.

Who the fuck was this family I was living with? No one had ever mentioned anything like this happening to them, and they’d treated me like an alien since the morning I was born.

Maybe they were right.

The morning I woke up with the stardust sea in my bed, it was still dark outside. I reveled in the dust, then walked outside in the cool air, the shimmer leaving a trail behind me.

I sat out on the deck and watched the stars until they disappeared from view.


Colors I Had No Name For

Kristi Wallace Knight

Star being. I look across the campfire at my companions. Greta is dozing with her chin in her chest, turned slightly away from the fire. Brenda and Bronwyn have their heads close together, murmuring a story to each other. It probably looks to them like I am dozing, too. I probably did doze, as far as they knew. But I traveled, up there, into the stars. They sang to me, no one else seemed to notice or hear, and as I looked up and listened their song turned to light, a thousand times deeper than starlight, with colors I had no name for. Their notes became words with sounds no one had ever spoken before, but I understood, and they said, we are you, you are us, and I was at home in no way I ever had been before.

And now I am back with them, my traveling companions, these creatures of earth, and I see their natures, too. Greta is of earth, she is stone, she is stillness, she stores the day for the night and night for the day, she is slow but constant. Brenda and Bronwyn, the twins, are water, they go places smaller than anyone else sees. Daniel is air, he is within and between and through us all, carrying things from there to here, he is what moves us. David is fire, he warms us on our journey, but he may consume us, too. We keep him at a distance.



Kait Moon

I was 24, he was 37.

What we lacked in common we made up in drugs.

I met him in a bar I’d never been to. I’d been living in Olympia for two years and never went that far down 4th street. The bar was at the north end of town, where the hippies hung out. I was more of a club girl.

I walked in the glass front door. 10:30 pm and the place was essentially empty. I looked over at the long bar on the right and my eyes followed it down as it melted off into the distant expanse of a great deep hall of a pub.

I ordered a Guinness, sipped it, ordered another. I stewed and prayed to all the gods for someone to come and bring me some weed.


“Hi” I replied

“What’s your name?”

“Kelly Luna, yours?”

“Jess Fagan”

“Wait, do I know you? I know I’ve seen your name.”

“Not sure how, but your name sounds familiar too” he said.

We determined he DJ’d at the radio station where I was DJ and music director, I knew his name from the playlists and reports, he knew mine from the announcements and the giant whiteboard outside the studio where I wrote all the new music that had come in.

“Want to get stoned?”

“Yes, I really, really do.”

We walked down 4th street, further North, to an apartment he was house-sitting. We made our way into the studio, typical Oly-hippie; Beads hanging from the bathroom doorway, throw pillows, milk carton crates holding the record player up and the records in. I sat on the tapestry-covered futon and he put on a record, then sat down next to me to pack a bowl.

An hour later:

“Wanna make out?”

“Not really.”

“OK,” he said and lit a fresh bowl and handed it to me, exhaling a cloud of smoke.

Three months later I’d be living with him and doing more than make out and we’d start a year of trying everything we could get our hands.

He told me about his journeys in Guatemala, of taking peyote, of eating fresh mangoes off the trees with salt.

I told him about my days on the streets, how I at 16 I’d heard about Evergreen State College and knew I’d go there someday, and how I made my way to Olympia.

One night, after three days of fresh cyanescens tea, we decided to do something a little different. We’d gotten it from a friend, something synthetic with lots of numbers and letters and no real name. By the end of the night the curtains were melting, I’d become a porch swing with toes, communed with the house spirits and Jess and I had determined that he was made of Godstuff, and I was made of Starstuff. To this day, he still calls me that and reminds me who I really am: a girl made of Stars.


You Told Me You Were a Witch

Kitty Torres

“Darling, remember how I used to climb the wall and sit in the corner of the room on Full Moon nights and I told you it was a witch thing?”

“Yes…” his voice goes up in the end.  He’s waiting for the other shoe to drop.

“Well,” I say, releasing my long fluffy tail, “that wasn’t exactly true. I’m from another planet.”

“You told me you were a witch.”

“I know. I didn’t want to scare you. The truth is I am from another planet and my people are coming to pick up me up tomorrow.”


“Yeah, I just found out, otherwise, I would have given you more notice.”


“They won’t hurt you.”

“What about the baby?”

“You can have the baby, all I want is the dog.  He’s one of us.”


“From my planet.” I point to the  Northwestern sky.

“I’m calling Dr. Larkin,” he says. “And booking the first available appointment.”

“I’ll be gone by then.”

The next day at sunrise I hug my baby good-bye, look at my garden, and smell the pine tree for the last time.  My husband is snoring softly. I blow him a kiss. The space ship is invisible and parked at the end of the cul-de-sac.  I clip the dog’s leash on and walk out the door.

I will miss this little planet.

Dr. Larkin will console my husband.  He’ll say it was probably postpartum depression. I just ran away.

My husband will wonder, look up at the Northwest sky after midnight, and cry.


Dancing Star

Lisbeth Coiman

Joseph and I can’t miss a chance to dance. I have this dancing energy that transforms me, beyond inhibitions and social barriers. My hips move to the beat of drums as if driven by a mind of their own.

With Joseph, I’m the star of the show.

With his shy manners, he lets me lead while he enjoys the swaying of my hips and our legs interlocked in rhythmic synchronization.

People stop dancing and look at us; sometimes they clap and encourage us.

We dance along at the center of the party, feeling the magic of the moment transpire through our glowing skins. We look into each other eyes, let the music invade us and carry us to a place that’s both intimate and public.

Transfixed, my body sways to one side and I feel his follow in perfect unison, moving in the same direction, encircling mine with a sexual energy that barely needs contact to burn in desire. I pass under his open arm as he grabs me by the waist and turns me around. Again we face each other, and continue the game of hips chasing feet commanding arms into a rhythmic frenzy until we just shimmer in the light and all eyes are on us.

We don’t do this stiff ballroom-dancing thing Americans do. I learned to dance in “el barrio,” with my teenaged neighbors when we were growing up, dancing Salsa with the Fania All Stars: Hector Lavoe, Ismael Rivera, Ruben Blades, Willie Colon, Celia Cruz. No wonder I am a dancing star.

We dance like this, in our own dimension, until we remember we are the hosts of the party and go back to our duties.


My Metamorphosis

Dot Hearn

The tingling started in the middle of my palms but nothing had happened to them, safe in my pockets. Still, I couldn’t ignore the feeling so I pulled out the right one, which was feeling slightly warmer than the left. I splayed my fingers and turned the hand face up and there it was, the universe mapped out in stars with a red dot flashing.

I jumped back from the hand but it, of course, followed me. I skipped the stretching exercise and dashed out my left hand, noticing that it was not a star pattern but a hologram with a familiar yet unknown face, searching.

Searching for me?

I shook both hands, thinking I could erase the sensation and then decided to jump up and down to clear my head but I only felt worse.

And my left hand felt like it did if I was holding the Blackberry and someone called in except…

“Commander?” came a voice from my hand that I did not recognize.

No, I knew the voice but not from here, not from this place and…

“So, honey,” I heard Jasmine’s voice behind me. “I want to make this casserole for dinner tonight. ‘Cept I know you don’t like kale, which is the big ingredient, so I wanted to check with you. I mean, I don’t want you to go hungry or anything.” She paused.

I looked back, saw her now staring at me.

“Your color! What did you do?” She nearly shrieked.

It was then that I realized the other change was that my skin had taken on an aqua hue. No, not had taken on; that’s what it had always been before I tried to blend in to this place. This time. These people. To look like her, the human from earth with the bland pale skin and the rusty freckles and the need to eat things that grew from the ground.

“Commander? Are you okay?” the voice in my hand asked. I unclenched my palm. I stared at the pewter face and the lavender hair. “Are you ready?”

I looked at the face and remembered. I looked at Jasmine and remembered: She wasn’t coming with me. I’d been here too long and I had—feelings. Human earth feelings and I needed to go back to my own planet but it wasn’t going to be easy.

But I knew my metamorphosis had only begun and soon I wouldn’t be able to hide it from her, anyway.


These Are Not My People

Breezy Barcelo

Why did it take this long for me to realize?

It should have been obvious all along.

These are not my people.

This is not my land.

The discomfort I felt at what I was taught. Why is war even an option–I wondered all throughout childhood.

Where I am from there is no war—no rush for time or control.

The message came clearly to me—as I was painting, of all things. My daughter handed me a paintbrush dripping thick red paint onto the beige carpet. As I took it from her, I smiled. There was a new voice in my head:

“The tests you have passed… they are many. The difficult times you have endured… they are enough. You have proven your loyalty to your people, without even knowing we exist.”

I let the brush fall to the floor, red paint making a small splash.


“I’m okay!”

I stood up, ran out on to the deck.

“Mommy, I’m sorry about the paint mess.”

“It’s okay!” My thoughts were louder than I’d ever heard them before. Why now? Who are you? Who am I?

“Just know,” came that deep voice again, “know that there is a purpose in this mayhem. We will not pull you away until you know you are ready in every aspect, until you can let go of those you’ve come to love, until you have influenced those you were sent to influence and change what you’ve been sent to change. We just decided that you deserve to be aware now. No more questioning your existence. No more feeling alone in the universe. No more tears.”


Not In Front of Jesus

Jenny Forrester

My brother and I are sitting in the clouds. He just arrived.

“This can’t be heaven,” he says.

“No, it isn’t,” I say and he looks at my T-shirt because it says “Born Femi-Nazi.” We both laugh because of course that’s what I was wearing when I died. I have draped the chains that I used to lock myself to the gate at the local Nuclear power plant across my shoulders, adjusting them like they’re a fashion accessory.

We’re soon joined by our mom.

“You’re older than I am,” she says to us.

“You were younger when you died,” we say. “You look good, mama.”

She smiles, “I know.”

Jesus is a ways off, standing around digging his toes into the sand looking cool, but nervous. Our mama’s still got it.

“So,” my brother says, “It IS heaven?”

“Can’t be, brother, you’re a Republican and you’re here.”





“Please, you two,” Mom says, “Not in front of Jesus.”

Jesus has made his way over to us.

“Heaven,” he says, “Is anywhere your mother is.”

We all nod. The sky has turned to darkness and stars the way it used to be in the sky of the small town where mom raised us.

Carl Sagan floats by on an open-air spaceship, admirers surrounding him. “We are all made of star stuff,” he says.

Jesus and my brother roll their eyes.

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